Backstory

I’m OK | 2013

This painting has undergone a transformative journey, and its meaning has evolved every time I have looked at it over the years. Initially titled 'Tentative Grip on Reality', it was created during a tumultuous period marked by existential uncertainty and disillusionment. The faded hand, barely visible amidst watery hues, symbolizes a fragile grasp on stability, with only the fingertips bearing a semblance of clarity and resilience, while the thumb and forefinger 'OK' with the most strength.

Over time, the painting has transformed into a representation of 'disassociation', reflecting moments of detachment experienced during burnout. The paradox of declaring "I'm OK" while internally disconnecting from oneself and surroundings highlights the complexities of mental resilience and coping mechanisms.

However, as I reflect on this artwork while writing this, I realize that its significance goes beyond any one interpretation or title. It serves as a deeply personal 'self-portrait' of my psyche during various stages of introspection. Furthermore, its fluidity allows viewers to project their own experiences onto the canvas, finding solace or resonance in its imagery.

Techniques

SURFACE:
Muspaneel
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Medite MDF 9mm | Very smooth white top layer (Muspaneel® formula)

MEDIUM:
Old Holland Oil Paints
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Indian Ink
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Artists’ Satin Varnish
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TECHNIQUE:
I started by making a faint sketch with a charcoal pencil and then moved on to using Indian Ink. I used watered-down ink and tissue paper to create the desired effect, allowing the ink to dry in some areas and pool in others. After it was dry, I erased any leftover charcoal pencil marks and began painting thin layers of oil paint. Once I was happy with the painting, I left it to dry for a few months before applying a satin varnish, which I prefer over gloss or matte.

SOLD:
The painting was sold to a Hand Therapist in the UK